Believing Him

​Hermana Rebeca—menos-activo who came to church with us 2 weeks ago for the first time in 25 years!

I love being a missionary. It's also the hardest thing I have ever done; I know it will get harder as I continue to learn, as I'm pushed farther out of my comfort zone, and as I continue to be put in situations where I can't rely on my own strength. I can't see the future; I don't know in what ways I will be tried and what things will be put in my path, but I know that whatever happens it will be for my benefit and learning. I know my Heavenly Father is helping me become a stronger and more capable "misionera" and that He is preparing me now so I can truly be used as an instrument in His hands as a missionary. 

I remember praying to have experiences so I could bear a stronger testimony to my investigators as I do what I ask them to do, such as praying and having faith that I'll receive an answer. Well, I'm definitely having experiences like I asked for—not just in receiving answers to my prayers. And I have never felt a stronger need to rely so much on my Heavenly Father. I realize that I need to rely COMPLETELY on the Lord and His Spirit, not just partly here and there when I really need it. It's got to be completely and it's got to be all the time because I am so weak and need Him to be made strong.

I continue to learn more and more that I really can't do this alone; knowing I need His help and that I need to put more trust in Him isn't enough. Just like believing IN our Savior isn't the same as believing HIM—believing that He will do what He says He'll do and that He really can cleanse us from sin and help us through our trials and tribulations. I learned this week that I need to believe HIM and believe that even in difficult situations, even though I don't know every Spanish word that's spoken to me, I will be given the exact words to say in the exact moment I need to say it, and for each person individually that I'lI come in contact with. 

In the lessons where I do just that, I can feel myself being guided by the Spirit to know what to say and I feel more confident and not afraid to be bold in testifying and teaching. I know our Heavenly Father loves His children and I know that our Savior loves us. He wants for each of us to feel comfort in knowing we can put all of our trust in Him. Without fail He'll always be there to catch us and help us be strong. We just need to do our part and show our faith and willingness to follow Him.   

Thank you so much for your prayers and support everyone. I know it's helping me so much. ¡Les amo!

Love,

Hermana Olivia Nicolosi

​Hermana Loida. We are getting close with her; she just needs to come to church and she's ready! 

​Sandra (mom), me, and Yamille (daughter). Yami is so cute. She's got our backs thats for sure ;) (she stands up for us...)